||[Jan. 13th, 2010|08:25 am]
I am trying to figure out how to maintain emotional equilibrium during a major upcoming event. Recent and upcoming family difficulties are upsetting me greatly and things at work are not helping (I added debugging to code to trace down a bug and, of course, the heisenbug disappears -- unfortunately, the debugging slows down the program to unacceptably glacial pace). I am overwrought and I am afraid that I may act with emotion rather than reason during the weekend.
There must be something in the air. During my recent visit with my father, we attended Der Rosenkavalier at the Metropolitan Opera. The performance was competent and the staging tradition, though wandering cameras added an odd touch. However, much strife arose over seat contention, usually because people misread their tickets, though the occasional SRO tried to sneak on to a supposedly empty seat -- no fisticuffs but a lot of harsh and distracting words during the performance. My father, who is going through chemo, slept through all this, but he wondered why there was a different person sitting in front of him every time he awoke.
I recently read Ernst Jünger's The Glass Bees and Pierre Boulle's Planet of the Apes. Both books seems to have a European flavor to them, but I am having difficultly figuring out what specifically brings about this "flavor". Jünger's book is mostly introspection with surprisingly little on-stage action; the action involves mostly two job interviews, plus a few airborne eponymous automata. Boulle's book now suffers from the infamy of launching all those ape movies.